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the theme of yesterday’s yoga class was to think positive thoughts. throughout class the instructor consistently reminded us to think positive thoughts, “i can do it,” “i am good enough,” “i am beautiful” etc….
at the end of class, the instructor asked each of us to repeat a positive affirmation to ourselves 3 times. i panicked at first, i felt rushed, i wanted to find the perfect affirmation. i struggled. i wasn’t sure what to tell myself. i was doing the exact opposite of what the teacher had asked her students to do. then i finally found it. “i am love”
i am currently reading a book, The Unlikely Pilgrimage Of Harold Fry. the couple in the book are in a marriage that has gone stale. through self-discovery they realize regrets about their marriage, love, sex, communication.
of course, this book has opened my eyes and allowed me take a look at my own relationships with others. AM i “love” ?
on Friday, i had a conversation with a new friend. she is a 40-something year old vegan woman. she’s never been married, and she was telling me about a guy she has just started seeing. it is not easy to meet good people, it is not easy to find someone you would consider sharing your life with, but she found one she is considering. she even found a guy who is vegetarian! we talked and laughed. we said a few jokes about the male species, and we reminisced the ones who got away.
the topic of “new love” always sends hearts and butterflies running through my body. i mentioned how i miss that “smitten” feeling that you get when you are first getting to know someone, and then i immediately realized that i have always been smitten for my boyfriend. however, i have allowed life’s little annoyances to get in the way of pure love. things like making the bed, doing the dishes, taking out the trash, and running 10 minutes behind have gotten in my way of being love.
“awareness perceives change,” is a mantra that my colleagues constantly repeat and analyze. today and from here on out, i will work hard to ensure that i don’t have any regrets later in life. that i take advantage at every opportunity to love and to be loved. carpe diem, they say.
as my yoga class ended yesterday, my boyfriend was sending me these text messages:
“The question is not what a man can scorn, disparage, or find fault with, but what he can love and value and appreciate.”
“If there were one thing I’d live by, it’d be that,” he said. looks like we’re on the same page. (although i have not voiced any of this to him)
“fear less, hope more; eat less, chew more; whine less, breathe more; talk less, say more; love more, and all good things will be yours.” - Swedish Proverb
the 2012 olympic games have come to and end, but i can’t stop watching this commercial that Nike aired during the games:
you may or may not find relevance with this video in this blog post, however this video strikes me. you see, it seems as though i have been waiting for something to happen, for something to change. not only when it comes to my relationship, but also my eating habits, communication with others, my fitness level…. i have always thought that there will be some turning point in my life and at that point in time, things will be different, better.
“greatness is not in one special place, it is not in one special person. greatness is wherever somebody is trying to find it.”
this weekend has brought one big message to my attention, and while it wasn’t the first time i can also guarantee this won’t be the last time that this message presents itself to me.
maintain a positive state of mind.
love, value, and appreciate.
find greatness in everything you do.
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